Self Conscious

World seems to be falling upon my shoulders...
This World was filled with many dreams, hopes and even love.
When I made a decision, It was one way or the other.
There was no between.

The thought of making the wrong choice drowned me in fear.
This fear was hopeless, dreamless, and loveless.
When fear was brought upon myself,
I became stressed out.

I felt so hopeless, dreamless, and loveless.
This by far is the strangest feeling I had.
Never have I ever felt so broken down into pieces,
Never have I ever felt so hopeless.

Just the thought of the little time I had to make this decision made me wonder...
What it would have been like If I had more time to ponder upon this decision I made.
Would it have been anymore different than it is now?
Would my life been filled with happiness?

Then I thought to myself...

I was a selfish bastard.
I often forgot to acknowledge that my life was filled with gifts and happiness.
Just because one event had gone wrong,
I took things for granted.

I vow to myself,
From this day on...
I'll live my life filled with gratitude.
I'll erase the past, and live on thanking the Lord about the wonderful Life I was granted.